I was watching the movie ‘Losing Isaiah’ in Netflix. I selected the movie myself to spend my lazy afternoon :(. I found myself vey emotional past few days and something inside my mind asked me to watch this movie :). I am glad that I did!. It is the story of a crack-addicted mother who left her baby in garbage bin and another mother who is a doctor who adopts that baby and gave him a wonderful life till the baby turns 2 years. Then the birth mother came claiming for the baby. The movie is full of emotions of the birth mother, the adopted mother and the little baby Isaiah. It was really touching!. I cried like a baby for almost one hour :(.
I cannot forget the moment when legal services came and took the baby from adopted mother as per the court order to give him to birth mother after 2 years. That was a heart breaking scene :(. I wondered, I too had 4 situations like this in my life. Only difference is , there were no legal services or no adopted mother…just me and my babies..not 1 or 2 times..4 times…They were taken forcefully from me without even asking me..I cried like a mad girl when I found I lost my babies at 6-7 weeks.. I lost my sleep for weeks..I used to cry with my pillow on my face so that my hubby cannot hear me weeping..I still cry when I think about them.
You are not being forgotten..You will be in my heart forever.. You were the best.. You gave me the feeling of ‘being mommy’ at least for few weeks..I am thankful for that!. Can I hope that you are guarding your little brother/sister inside me?..I am sure that you are trying to keep your sister/brother safe and healthy..I strongly believe that my little peas..There is no replacement for you..Only mommy was able to feel you..Only mommy can cry for you..Mommy love you a lot!!